So here I am -- almost 6 weeks into this here blog thing and I've been thinking tonight about it and its goal and if I am being successful. The goal of this whole thing is to be comfy in my own skin - how do I measure that though? Posing naked? Asking for help when I need it? Being unafraid of the world? Running for President?
It's a great goal but it isn't terribly measurable. Do I feel better than when I started this blog? Yes. I absolutely do. The middle of September was a REALLY tough time for me but I feel like things are much better -- much more back on track. That's great and I am happy -- I was a pretty miserable kid for a few weeks there. But does that make me comfier? Happy with *ME*? I don't know. I think so but I don't know. I'm not sure how to measure it.
I am working on stepping out of my own comfort zone -- putting myself in places where I wouldn't normally find myself and sucking up the gumption to do it. I have done it a bit - I definitely need to do more. But I haven't spent every blog post dealing with this stuff - I've used it to do that, for sure. I've used it to figure out some things for myself and I've used it to pontificate about things. I certainly do not have a small number of opinions on things - does posting that violate the rules of this blog? I'm not sure about that one either.
I'm just thinking a lot about this blog and where I want it to go. This isn't my first blog but I have kept up with this better than other ones so for that -- I feel good.
And for people who know me only through this blog? Thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to read. I hope you stick around and I hope you identify yourself. I'd like to get to know you as you are getting to know me.
