Free floating anxiety...

I have never had a panic attack - at least I think I haven't.  I have read people's accounts of them and I have never experienced anything like that but I have certainly had a lot of moments of free floating anxiety.  Sometimes it is situation specific and sometimes it is just there and I have no idea why.  I'm having one of those nights today.  I'm dealing with some stuff around refi-ing my house which i am sure is part of it -- I hate all things money and I hate the stress of it and anything around it is stress.  That is definitely part of it.  But I fear it is more than that and I'm not sure what it is.  

I remember when I was married and my ex and I were trying to get a lease on a house that we both loved and we didn't get it -- we were beat out by another applicant and I remember saying to him "I'm glad I'm married so I don't have to have this disappointment alone."  That is the part of being married I definitely miss.  Not that I can't take care of myself - I do a pretty ok job with it and I've been living alone now for 3.5 years but when I have this anxiety...well, I kind of wish I could dump it on someone else!

How nice am I?

Comments

[Keet]

it'll be OK!!! really!

[Robin]

Yeah but then there is all the emotional baggage you have to take on of the other person, sometimes it's just exhausting. I have enough emotional baggage of my own.

[Anxiety Therapy]

I've being researching about Anxiety and reading your blog, I found your post very helpful. I thought I would leave my first comment. I don't know what to say except that I have enjoyed reading. Nice blog!

[Family Therapy]

Well said Amanda. These days everybody is busy in his works. We have time for all the things except taking care of our heath. Thats why untill we realize that it has been too late. And there are many things which are giving us tension in our daily life. Many reasons to loose your health. But we have to make sure to keep visiting our doctors.