I was going to write today about starting the Couch to 5K program last night which I feel really good about. I have set the goal of a sub 40 minute 5K by my birthday in March. I still have the 2nd half marathon to do in November but I think I can roll this all into 1 program to get me ready for both things.
I was also going to write about how I am feeling better than I was last week. I have made peace with the 1/2 marathon from hell. I have made peace with my current discontent and I have been working on being kinder to myself. These are all great things.
I was going to write about clothes and dressing to make yourself feel better about yourself. Last year I went through a process to learn about my image type. I loved it but I'll talk more about that another day.
I was going to write about a lot of things and then I wrote today's date in my notepad. September 29. Not a date that would strike most as being important but it is a date on which I lost someone I loved very much, my father in law Charlie. Charlie passed away 4 years ago today and I still think of him all of the time. He treated me as his daughter during a time when I didn't have a relationship with my own father. He was kind and loving and wonderful to me. He was crass and could be borish and loud and tell an off colour joke like few I have ever met. But he was fiercly loyal to his people and was one of the best grandfathers I have ever met. One of the few reliefs I had during my divorce was that my father in law wasn't alive to see it because I knew it would break his heart. I knew he would have dragged us both into a room and told us to figure it out. Even if he had been alive, that wouldn't have helped but still - he would have tried. He was just that guy.
I am sending much love and peace to all of those who loved Charlie, particularly his son, my ex husband, today.
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