Good days...

I showed this picture to a friend of mine about a year ago and her response was "YOU BITCH!  You look exactly the same!"

Sadly that isn't exactly true -- that was taken about 22 years ago or so...I don't look 14 anymore But I was a pretty cute kid there.  Why the British flag in my hair, you ask?  This picture was taken at Camp Conrad Weiser during the US v. International staff soccer game and like a good girl with a HUGE crush on the hotty UK counselor Simon, I was totally cheering for the International folks. 

Today is a good day -- actually yesterday and today were good days.  My funk of last week has definitely lifted and I feel much more optimistic about things than I did about 168 hours ago.  I truly do know myself -- I have to hit bottom and take a few days to regroup and then I can make a plan and move forward.  It is good to know that because it does mean that I know when I get like I was last week -- it's a limited sentence.  Work through it and move on.

What I have realized in the last week though is that I truly have an amazing network of people in my life that I can call upon.  Any time.  Any place.  Not that I didn't know this - I have always known that my friends are my family but over the last few years, I have felt separate from them.  In a much different place...not married, no kids - still up for hitting a bar on a Friday night while they are home nursing their babies or enjoying the services of a baby sitter to get an evening out with their husband where they can truly talk.  I don't begrudge any of them that but it has meant I am in a different place and frankly, that place felt lonely for a long time.  This past week it has felt less lonely.  It's nice to know that I have people and I have places to go when I need them.

I have also been feeling better in my own skin as of late - a bit more confident, a bit more brave about putting myself out there.  It is tough for me but I think the rewards will be worth it.

And next Monday I start Mondo Beyondo! which I am SO beyond excited about!  I truly wonder what will become of it.

Comments

[Sarah]

Oh crap, I missed MB again. Boo. I'm excited to follow along with you though! And yes, you have an amazing group of friends. I'm a wee jealous of all the girlfriends that you have. I need to expand my circle.