Last night I went to see The Fault In Our Stars. That may mean I'm officially a 13 year old girl but I'm ok with that. It would also mean that it was fitting to go with my best friend from around age 14. Which is good because I needed a hand to hold. I don't want to ruin it for anyone who doesn't know the story but it was a tear jerker of the highest degree. I don't think a movie has made me cry quite that hard in a very long time. Towards the end of the film (and I assume book - I'm going to be reading that soon) came the following quote:
"You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world...but you do have some say in who hurts you." - The Fault In Our Stars
Hearing that and thinking of it over and over again last night and then this morning has been like a lightening bolt through my heart. I have thought long and hard about those who have hurt me. But more than that I have thought of the times I have chosen well or chosen poorly. It's given me a lot to work through and around over the last 22ishy hours and I suspect for much longer but it's one of those simple truths that starts what could be a huge push in growth.